November / December 2012
I lost my love for 4years. I am hurt..but i can accept it as i know the main reason for it..For all this while, only you in my mind..When i sweared to love you and only you, i hold to it until our last moment..All i know is that all this while, i never loved anyone else when i am with you..
U asked for it..and i let it go..as you wish..all i want is for you to be happy..even it hurts like hell..but i have no other choice..I made my decision..I let you go..
But..i never realized that i will open my heart again for someone so fast..All i knew is that..I don't want to loose you..like how i lost in my previous relationship..All that comes to my mind is that, it is a sudden feeling..as you really cared for me..how can i not love you..The feeling is so strong as made me lost my mind and my own control of myself..
I know that i should not fall in love with you..I know that i MUST NOT tell you regarding it..but i failed..I am sorry..As you wish..u want to clear things up..u told me that all the words are just misunderstanding..are just words that doesn't mean anything like how i feel..and how shall i explain to you that I DO LOVE YOU?
I am sorry dear..all in my mind now is I cant stop loving you..and i will let u be happy..i will look from far..I fall for u, in a split second but i won't give up on you after what u said..I really CAN'T..
I will cherish you as i can, I wish to make u smile again..laugh again..I missed all that moments we are together..
I will beg you for a change..and i promise you..i will never break our heart..
